So last night I played with the Facebook app, “Are You Interested”. I changed my settings so my pic was actually visible. I got some replies. Imagine that. I’m texting with one guy right now, I’m IM’ing with another. And I’m having fun, and isn’t that the entire point of the whole wide world?
T. and I briefly discussed dating tonight. She thought it was “fun”. Then, she admitted to a bit of frustration when D. wouldn’t play the game the way she wanted to last summer. And I said that that frustration, that anger that she felt… That was typical for women to feel. Men are interested, then they’re not. They want something, then they don’t. They may or may not be “the one”, but it’s hard to tell. Dating is fun (at least, I think it is?). But it’s also a real strain on your emotions and your ego. There’s that immediate high because someone paid attention to you, and then the immediate low if it goes away. There’s the fun in finding new people, and creating new relationships, but then there’s the concern and the wonder when you don’t get a new email or a text or a phone call. What did I do wrong? Why aren’t I good enough? And let’s not even talk about Hockey…!
Basically, you’re constantly questioning and trying to second-guess someone else’s thoughts about you. And God, then there’s the fear that whoever you’re talking to isn’t really who he or she says she is. Regardless of whether you’re meeting in person or online… One of the guys I’m talking to said that he dated a woman for three months and then she admitted she was married.
It’s sort of like playing Frogger… You’re dashing and dodging and doing your damndest to make it to the other side without ending up splattered under the tires.
