I am in love with this man.

I can’t help it.

He’s practically perfect.

I know I might look back on this post in a week, in a month, in six months, and wonder what the hell I was thinking.

But for right this minute, I can’t wipe the smile off my face.

He came here, even though he was clearly exhausted. His face was drawn and he was just not happy. But he came because he wanted to see me. Last night, when he wasn’t able to come (car trouble – alternator problems), he IM’med me to say, “I was really looking forward to seeing you tonight :( “

Guys, don’t ever, ever discount how important the words are to your woman. It was so amazingly wonderful to hear that. Then tonight he came over, and he brought bulbs for my car. He went out and bought bulbs for my car. And then he changed my brake light, and now it works.

I bought him dinner (Swiss Chalet – who doesn’t love Swiss Chalet?). Then he still wasn’t quite “right”. So I asked him to lie down on the bed and I rubbed him from toe to head and back again. His feet, calves, hamstrings, his back, his thighs, that tendon that runs past his knee, his tris and bis… The back of his neck is his favourite spot, I think. And by the time I finished, he was in a much better, more calm mood. Not that he was upset, but I think he was just really tired.

Then we lay there for two hours and talked. About why I broke up with TheEx, why he broke up with his ex. About sex and sex toys and religion and politics. About this and that and dating and everything. God.

No sex, Chicago. Either I’m doing something very right or very wrong, I’m not sure which. Because at some points, during the whole rubbing process, he was … excited. But he didn’t. And you know, I’m not in charge, so I didn’t, either. lol. I could stay wrapped in his arms forever. I think we’re finally getting past the tiptoeing stage and we’re actually getting to know each other now. And I still like what I see. A lot.

I need to share the karma story, but that’s for tomorrow. Tonight, I’m going back to my bed, which apparently “smells great” and definitely “smells great” now because CB lay in it for three hours, almost. Me likey.